fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

everyone ignore this im serious there is no reason fro me to be writing this in a public place but whoomp here i am 

its just really REALly fucking hard when the girl youre in love with who KKNOWS YOURE IN LOVEW ITH HER comes to you with relationship problems and talks about leaving school and joining a band with you and being punk rock together only to take back that its a possibility moments later

and then complain about you not talking to her enough like i dont talk to you because every time i do i remember that you are the fucking sun and everything beautiful embodied and everything i could possibly ever want and everything i can never have and you know, you fucking know, but its still my fault because im the one that keeps putting myself in these situations and im the one that keeps pulling my emotions in instead of pushing them away and im the one that keeps

fucking myself over and getting high and having sex to forget about you and im the one that never will

fuck